I'm sad. Just finished my last spring concert ever. I know I've been saying this for a while but this time it's for sure. I'm going to miss choir like crazy. It was only when the final song had been sung, and in the magical silence that just follows a piece of music I realized how much I was going to miss it. So people ask me, why are you leaving? But I don't think they realize how much older I really am than the rest of the choir. And sometimes I can really tell the age difference. But that's not stopping me from feeling incredibly sad at this moment. There are still people I am going to miss to no end, and there is nothing like singing with a choir you know, singing music you like, with a conductor who you are incredibly familiar with.

Just before I left, I went and said goodbye to Linda. You can't imagine how strange it will be not seeing this woman every week. I mean, I've seen her every week since I was in grade 5. That's a long long time. She's seen me when I was a shy little girl, an immature teenager, and the whatever I am now twentysomething. And some of my most beautiful moments, moments where the world had made sense and right and good have been in her presence. We got to talking about how the choir is going to BC next year and depending on what I'm up to I might tag along. And as she was leaving she shouted "see you next year!". And Mandy yelled "you're never going to be able to leave." And I think that might just be true. Because as much as I try, I keep coming back. But for sure I won't be there next fall, and that is making me sad.

On a different topic, I seem to be having a pattern of writing 2 paragraph blogs so I'm trying to change that. Tomorrow starts my summer life, living in a basement in a house that seems to have an indefinite number of people. Yay!

Well I'm off to watch the hockey game. I think I might try to catch one while I'm in Ottawa. Unless of course, they lose this round. Which I secretly hope they do (Sens fans please don't stone me!). It's not that I'm being un-patriotic. I'm rooting for Vancouver. It's just I'm a newfound fan of Philly. And Keith Primeau. Who ever said hockey players were't hot?

* song of the moment: a bit of every song I just sang running through my head all at once *