While I was on the bus today I started thinking about how, to such a large extent, our life is affected by the small decisions we make. There are those huge, you-know-it’s-life-altering decisions, but then there are billions of small ones we make all the time. And we never realize how much it may affect out lives. There are endless possibilities to how life can turn out, to where you get, and what you do, and who you’re with, and they could all be affected by a tiny little decision you did not even knew you made.

Like when I was in grade 10 I had to make the decision to join CELP or go to Germany on exchange. I had no idea what the outcome would be from either of them. It’s not like a "choose your own adventure book" where I flipped to page 83, decided I didn’t like getting attacked by a giant robot, and switched back. There is no option B. It’s the life you have. But at that time I had no idea. I think I may even have flipped a coin and decided. But if I didn’t do CELP I would not even be close to the person I am today. I would not want to teach outdoor ed, I would not love the outdoors. It goes on and on.

And this summer. I was so close to not taking the job. Imagine what my life would have been like then. I can’t even. It’s crazy. But all those possibilities are really exciting. Maybe I made a decision today that will turn my life around again. Who knows? There are endless outcomes and that’s exhilarating.

Plus it is absolutely beautiful out today. Gorgeous even. There is the warm spring wind that you can feel on your bare arms but doesn’t give you goose bumps. It even smells good out.

* song of the moment: Van Morrison – A Whiter Shade of Pale *